what u see and beleive is always not true!!!

happiness's...

what u see and believe is always not true!!!

life is a tough game.. play safe...

I'm repeating it again and again to myself...

be prepared...

be cautious about each and every move...

remember that for everything that happens to u, the reason its happening to u is again U!!!

coz what u see and believe is not always true!!!

I've understood it and I'm living in it..

and sometimes there's just no one to dry Ur crying wet eyes....

still life has to go on!!!!

eSh*

mom is sick and i'm feeling blue

oh god...  how can days be so painful.. 

this was my second time going to hospital for my parents sake..

and this time it was for my mother. i can still remember every single second when i was in narayana hrudayalaya for my dad. 

why does such out human body has all the feelings? cant everyone be fit and happy forever... why did god create all the diseases. pain should be there only for people who's committed sin. but i feel there should be no pain, and dint take sin into account... pain in painful. and seeing our dear ones in pain is the most toughest thing in this whole world.

god.. please save everyone and let there be no pain. physically and emotionally..

mom'z sick i'm feelin blue...

i cried and cried and cried this morning when i came to know that my mom'z sick and she needs to be hospitalized. i wanted to rush home but i can do it only tomorrow:(

life's so horrible in many ways. why should god create human beings and stuff them up with feelings like love, affection and all dose but also with these diseases and sickness???

not fair... not fair at all....

confusion - it explains evrything

i'm so confused... thats my state of mind right now...

what can be done? and how it has to be done? thats so simple yet difficult.

so first u need to know wat u have to do and then only u can do it. but how to understand what we have to do? here it starts.. first think about it... then start working on it..

 thinking whats wrong with me... come on it's quite a borin day so i thought of writing some thing well here it is...

well i feel like going home to see my mom but i'm not able to do it. my mom's quite unwell.. her hemoglobin count is 6.something. normal count for a average human being is 14 or 15.  she's not even having half of it...

i'm becoming tensed.. she's done so much for me and she's so childish... she's refusing to go to doctor!!!  so kiddish na.. so dad's got extra work. he has to take care of mom, take care of business, tale care of my dog spotty and wat else.. der's just so much!!!

i wanna go home... developing home sickness....

i wish i was der...  

:(

but still i'm happy atleast we have mobiles...

thanks to technology..

fed up - early in the morning!!!

good morning all... I'm wishing all so that Ur day might go well... I'm tempted to being upset or what? had quite a clash with my husband.. he's like a kid. cant do anything on his own and needs assistance for every  simple thing!!! how can he grow up without learning how to live on his own... i have my own work to do and he cant be this childish!!!  and he keeps screaming at me for not doing doing his things!!! how stupid.

some men are becoming so mean and selfish these days. no offence i said some men<3

feeling tired...

went to temple last evening in chetpet. it took time to return and hence I'm feeling tired.. also i had to get up early this morning so dint sleep well :(

anyways I've decided to sleep as soon as i finish writing this post. 

right now I'm actually thinking about how people would have described the feeling- sleepy before they would have found a word... hmm like i feel the my head is pulling my eyeballs inside!!! well i know its not funny but that is what I'm thinking right now. 

well i don't know if any one is ever gonna visit ma blog but I'm not worried. because i have a frequent visitor.. its me!!! chuckling!! ha ha.. bad one eh.. well I'm in no mood for writing right now but i also want to fill ma blog. and if u are the one who's gonna read it whats gonna bother me from writing. 

work work work.... i need to concentrate more on business... looks like i should take some serious steps to be more serious during work.

but I'm so confused about setting my goals. what do i set my goals as? to get more business? or to earn more money? or to get big fame as the best event organizers? well i think I'll have to think out of the can.. i don't like to think out of the box. may be out of a can or even out of my office??? ha my sick boring tiring jokes....  

well enough for today. i don't like to sleep during the day but still 

bye

inspite of bye and feeling sleepy i took some effort to find some pictures on the net..

finallu i'm off to dozing <3

what do i have to say to this world

actually not so many things...  well all i wanted is to write a book and i started this blog to gather ideas and feedback's.. I'm starting my new quest shortly and well it's going to my first venture. i should say i don't know why this happened to me!!! to write a book.. it might take years still i want to do it. 

please forget and forgive for mistakes in my writing :) 

I'm not an expert in writing but i love to read. my thirst for reading started with THE DA VINCI CODE. it was an accident. i was upset with my friend and i dint know where to go to throw my anger. i started to travel and finally reached the central railway station in Chennai. it was around seven thirty and i pulled a friend called Purni along. i was completely furious and i also dint know what to do. we both decided to keep walking. there were numerous petty shops all around. well guess what? i had only hundred and fifty rupees. what will i do with it? to return to my hostel i need hundred rupees. so my budget was fifty and at time i saw a shop full of books. tough I've seen a lot of people reading I've never done it. i used to call them as worms. i used to hate them because i always considered they are aliens who are inhuman!! book worms usually show off and are unfriendly??

alright back to the shop.i went closer and had a look at all those heavy and bulky books. i couldn't recognize any of them. i started looking at the pictures in the front page. that was all i can do. i showed to Purni like i was going to buy one otherwise she would have killed me for wasting time like anything. actually around fifteen minutes passed and both Purni as well as the shopkeeper became annoyed. so i understood that i have to buy a book. i saw the DA VINCI CODE by Dan Brown. I've read about DA vinci and his painting in may be my seventh standard history class. wow now i have something i know about and then i also remembered all the controversies that came about the book in the news. wow then it should have been famous. so i decided to buy it. 

well that's the story of how a book alien started buying a book

my fingers have started pulling in!!! long time since I've typed anything so long so quickly. I'll take a break and come back..

eSh*

eshuz started bloggin!!!

ma blog....

lol